I was chatting with my own mum this week about how the feelings experienced by a parent can only be understood when you become a parent yourself. Not sleeping until you’ve heard your first born is home safely despite being 30 years old and living in a different house, wanting the best for them or being unable to watch them race around the Velodrome when they have an MBE!
It must be hard for a parent when a child chooses a hard career and your only choice is to be supportive although every atom of
your being is screaming “BECOME AN ACCOUNTAAAAANT!” Some people are lucky enough to have selfless
parents who support you whatever you do, not in a scary Judy Garland’s mother
kind of way but that quiet encouragement that acts as a buffer; always there to
fall back on.
My family are affectionately referred to as “rent a crowd,” appearing
unannounced at various venues around the UK and Europe because they “had a free
evening” to watch me in a show. I
pretend to sigh and roll my eyes but there is nothing better than seeing their beaming
faces silhouetted in the auditorium.
Something I still miss when certain family members can no longer be
there.
The most maternal I get at present is my complete and absolute
obsession with my nephew who, in my unbiased opinion, is practically perfect in
every way or the feelings I have experienced this week with the 60 children I
have taught in a musical theatre summer school.
They are not my flesh and blood and don’t even know my second name, I am
just “Dani.....?” who responds to every winge and question! But they have caused me to lose my rag when not
using their full potential and moved me to tears when they do.
I have previously admitted my inability to take my
heart off my sleeve or keep my emotions in check, blaming my genetic make-up as
an actress. A new by-product from my
luvvie-dom is I now find that I’m unable to detach myself from work; proven on
Friday as I silently wept whilst 18 teenagers nailed a performance of Don’t
Stop Believin’. I know! I hate cheesy musical theatre and I sang all
my appreciation away for that song twice daily last Christmas whilst
trapped in “the Giant’s kitchen” in panto!
These kids weren’t rivalling the cast of Glee in terms of belting voices
but they were all “giving it” to the best of their ability and had listened to “Dani’s”
rants about passion, selling every syllable to an empty auditorium. So this mother hen wept tears of pride!
I read a piece by Sarah Crompton in The Telegraph saying
that, in her opinion, family values were the true ethos behind our Olympic
games. Whether it can be scientifically
proven or not, you cannot ignore the evidence; Mrs Hoy’s heart in her mouth, thousands
of children watching with their parents, athletes leaping over barriers to
reach family members or Mr Tweddle talking about re-laying a patio when asked
what he’d been doing in the run up to his daughter competing in the gymnastics!
The support-givers count; they are the back bone of any
successful offspring and we’d all be nowhere without them.
And I have to let the summer school brood fly the nest
because they’re not mine and their own proud parents are looking forward to
watching them perform. Besides, I’ve got
plenty of time to discover the rollercoaster of maternal emotions – like my
emotional palette needs any more colour......... why couldn’t I have been an
accountant?
Link to Sarah Crompton's article http://www.telegraph.co.uk/sport/olympics/9459116/London-2012-Olympics-we-should-rejoice-the-family-Games.html
Lovely....just lovely! Don't ever forget...
ReplyDeleteDreams sometimes come true. Love from Mo xxx
How very true your meanderings are. We never stop being a Mum no matter how old our children are.!
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