I have been having some singing
lessons. They are long overdue and my first step towards getting Daniella and
her mojo back together.
I have written in the past about how
important it is to keep honing your skills when you are a performer; singing
lessons, dance class and theatre trips. In my silly world, I haven’t lived up
to my own advice. I’d let my passion and drive dwindle so no wonder I’ve been a
rudderless, miserable shadow of myself.
Well, I’ve had a good telling
off/rude awakening whatever cliché you want to use here and I’m on the path to
finding my own Act 2.
When you’ve been teaching for a
while yourself, it’s really strange to be the student again. It’s like starting
from scratch, realising that old habits were wrong and perhaps that’s why I hit
a wall professionally. But how liberating to start again and learn new ways to
do the thing that I love best.
Yes, it’s hard but I have a great
teacher and it feels invigorating to have a goal. Only today I saw an article
in The Stage about actors needing to constantly re-train and re-hone theirskills. Becoming stagnant is the danger, not only as an actor but in life to.
My wise old Dad says life is about always working towards a goal, if he was on
that Jeremy Vine Radio 2 segment “What makes us human,” I suspect that this
would be Dad’s definition. It seems a good one to live by.
Who knows if it will lead to auditions
and being a working actress again, but I do know it is a step towards being the
best that I can be again.
Why am I telling you all this? Is
this over-sharing with the inter-web world? Well, yes, it is very personal to
me but I feel like it might be relevant. A lovely tweeter contacted me this
week saying that she enjoyed the honesty of my blogs – so what’s the point of
only writing about the good stuff? That doesn’t always help and is the blog
equivalent of all of those “nom nom my gorgeous meal, look at me and my perfect
relationship and baby scan picture” facebook folk. Life is a yin and yang of
good and bad and if this little bit of honesty can help someone, then great.
There may be actors out there who are losing their confidence like I did,
people who are unsure what to do and it may help to know that we all feel a bit
crap from time to time. Just don’t let it go too far, don’t lose your mojo
entirely – trust me, it’s scary. So go and try to do something positive,
something small. Just re-address the balance of creativity in your life in
whatever form that may take for you. What’s that phrase? Take care of the pennies and
the pounds will take care of themselves? Little steps folks, little steps!
I wish you all a happy day.
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